Im sure I'm not the only one who is having a hard time coping with back issues. Mine is a T4-T10 fusion from a fall at work. Should have been paralysed, but luckily was not some how. Its been over a year now. A year that I cant get back. I do go to a Pain Management Doctor and Physical Therapy. Which both are a joke. I deal with pain every day. And its getting really old. Friends and family don't understand with what issues I deal with daily . They will say so and so had back surgery and they are fine? I cant tell you how bad I hate that when someone says..What is your problem? Why is it taking so long for you to get better. If you try and explain it, they still don't understand. I am, or was a carpenter. And as most carpenters they are pretty handy. I used to do a lot around the house and for other people. But I cant even cut the grass or even think about shoveling snow. Most likely my job is gone. Even if I did return, I'm not really sure I would want to climb around again. Scared of falling again. Im 51. And what do I have to look forward to. I have a garage full of tools that i used to use. Fix and tinker with stuff. When the cars needed service, I would do it. Oil changes, brakes, exhaust, wash and wax. Not no more. Its embarrassing when my kids, they are 18 and 20, will bring friends over and as anyone will ask. What does your Dad do? Of course they say, He does not work. My wife is ready to kill me. Try being home everyday together. She works at night. And had to pick up extra hours because workmans comp only pays you 2/3 of your pay. So we fight and argue a lot over money and what am I going to do. She will say I act like i'm 80 years old. And don't like to be seen with me, because I walk slow and if I use a cane. So I stay home alone. Watch everyone go about there day. I do clean and pick up. My back dictates how much. This is what I am reduced to. I was a avid outdoors man. Biking, hiking, fishing, boating, paddleboarding I loved the summer. People ask me, What do I do all day? I don't really know. What do you do when the drive is gone in you. Nothing makes you happy. Nothing to look forward to. Your life has stopped. I would rather be alone.