Yesterday I was so down
. On my last visit to the NS I was referred for nerve conduction tests, she has said that I may have a trapped ulnar nerve or it could be problems below my cervical ADR. Well needless to say I am desperatly hoping it is a trapped ulnar nerve, I just don't know how I would deal with even more surgery (3 in a year is pushing it a bit guys).
I decided to be very patient and just wait for the letter to arrive - that was 4 weeks ago. I'm so glad that I gave in and rang them yesterday ............ the bleep bleep referral hadn't been sent through to them. I was so upset, she calmly told me to ring the NS secretary to get it sent through and then had the nerve to tell me they were on the same floor as each other. WELL GET OFF YOUR BACKSIDE AND GO AND GET IT THEN. Have you ever tried to get through to one of their secretarys? An hour later I finally got a response - no apologies but a response.
Work is really frustrating. I do a really demanding job, which is hard enough to do in a full day, let alone a lousy 4 hours a day (that's all I can do right now). Therefore, I can't get involved in anything and I am so bored.
Today I plodded in again. Chin on the floor and feeling very sorry for myself. I rang the hospital to make sure the referral had arrived, it's awful, I don't trust them to do the things they say they will. She gave me a date for the tests there and then - September 16th. My chin lifted a little. I was then called into the office by the big boss - chin back down. He's asked me to oversee a really big job that is going on right now. He wants someone with my experience, expertise and aptitude to make sure that it is being dealt with properly
Chin back where it should be - physio would be proud of me!
Other than the symptons, I'm feeling pretty good about myself right now. It's made me realise that every day is a new day, every day will bring new challenges, every day might bring disapointments (spelling?), but one thing that will never change is that the next day is a new day ........... BRING IT ON!!!
Hope you are all doing well.