Hello there, I am looking for some advice on what options I have when I've failed my drug test with my PM D.O. I was sent by certified mail my discharge from my clinic and when I went in for my next appointment to talk to him about things he would not even talk with me even though the letter sent to me said, "The only way I can keep seeing you and giving you Rx for methadone & oxycodone is if you seek out help for your drug addiction." So I started seeing a licesened therapist with 30 years experience 10 years specialist in drug rehab like the letter said yet he would not even give me a chance to explain myself. I found out in 2011 when I started having hip pain that I had a disorder called Avascular Necrosis and in march of 2012 my left hip was 85% rotten and was replaced, at that time my right hip was 15% rotten and I was told to try to deal with the pain for as long as possible through PM and then we will replace the right hip as well. Without my pain meds I am unable to take care of my 2 small children now that I am a stay at home dad thanks to my disorder. The reason I failed the drug test was completely my fault and only a 1 time mistake. My wife and I were going through a very tough divorce and I was 32 years old living at my grandmas house unable to contact my wife or children by law and I was not dealing with this well. So I made the mistake of visiting a old friend who I knew was still using Meth and I stupidly used not knowing I would be taking a drug test days after. My wife and I are back together now and I have not had a drug problem for many many years I just made a mistake that ended up costing me a lot more than I ever knew. I know that my D.O. will put this on my permanent record and that no other PM clinic will take me because of this, but I truly need my pain meds to live my life. And the strong Rx's that I have been on for going on 2 years are gone cold turkey, no steps down, just gone. So now I get to deal with chronic pain with no meds and deal with withdraw symptoms from narcotics. Emberised by this, I don't know what route to go but I fear the worst for the future. What will my other doctors do like my phycratrist or my primary? Will they drop me as well? Is there any way I will ever be able to get my meds back? Will this failed drug test be there forever and will any/every doctor be able to see it? If anyone has any advice please respond with some good news for me. Thank you for reading.