i couldn't understand why I feel so depressed. I have been marvellous since my surgery (laminectomy fusion and stabilization). I have been doing most things but can't bend lift etc. I am a very active person and would like to return to my Pilates classes and etc but obviously I can't. I am helping to look after my granddaughter 3 days a week and have been fine. But this weekend I have felt so tired and down and my family don't understand they think I should be all singing and dancing as I have been so good and the severe pain in my leg is now gone. I am worried for the future and also about how I will be long term.