I haven't posted in a really long time, so I can copy my history here if needed.
Today is a really sad day for me. I went to see my PM. The last treatment he gave me was in January, I had Botox injections in my back and he prescribed me Amitriptyline .. which neither worked.
Before that he had given me Nabilone, which mostly made me feel terrible and I felt like I was in a fog or a daze. Everything was hazy.
Last year, he mostly tried various antidepressants.. I was on Cymbalta, Lyrica and some others I can't recall the names of. Given Meloxicam, Toradol and after that I've pretty much lost track.
I have tried ointments and creams, hot and cold packs to no avail.
Today, my PM told me that we have exhausted all options and that there aren't any treatments left to try or medications to try. He told me that my last resort is MM and that even that may not work.
I really feel so hopeless, I just want to cry. Am I a special snowflake? Why doesn't one single thing at least some what ease my pain, I don't understand what's wrong with me.
Has anyone else gone through the same thing as me? Is there anything out there that will make my back bearable?
My pain is unfortunate mostly localized to my central lumbar, between the bottom of my shoulder blades and although I have bad flare ups where it will be the majority of my back its mostly in the central area.
I just feel like a big piece of crap and don't understand what's wrong with me. I'm sorry for this huge rant, but I've just never been so upset in my whole life and just don't know what to do. Nobody seems to understand.